1.5- Life Can Do Terrible Things

 It was about 6:30 in the morning when the screaming started. Nigel woke up early and Penny always gets up around 5 to play around. She loves playing pretend before she goes to school and I don't see anything wrong with that. Nigel started screaming and arguing with Penny about foot prints left on the chair so I went downstairs to see what was going on. Nothing good of course. 

I told Penny she needed to go get ready and get to the bus before she was late. They had been fighting for a solid hour before I was even able to get a word in. Of course I was going to stand up for my daughter, she had done nothing wrong. She goes to school and has A's in her classes. Then, he tries to turn it around on me, I'm not a strict enough mother, I'm babying them to much (keep in mind they're only 10 years old.) 

Apparently he had finally cracked under the presure. He attacked me and that was the last straw. It was sad enough Tamara and Savannah saw it all and I was not going to deal with it anymore. His true colors have shown through. He hadn't changed. The abuse, the fighting, and the imaturity was why I left his ass in the first place. I can't believe my parents forced this man into my life, to be the father to my children. Unbelievable.

I broke it off. I told him I wasn't raising our children around a man who couldn't control what he said or did. He needed help that he wouldn't seek and I wasn't about to sit around and HOPE he changed again. So I packed me and the kids bags, and left. 

He kept the majority of the money and kept the house. I was left with next to nothing. I called the realtor and ended up with a house not even suitable for four kids plus me. I don't have near enough money for baby sitters and luckly the babies are about to turn 5. I needed a job but no idea who would take care of the kids.  I guess we would be living rough until Penny and Lexington were old enough. 

"Do you think mommy and daddy are getting a divorce?" Lexington asked Penny.

"I think so, me and Daddy were fighting this morning, he said I couldn't play pretend anymore. Then mommy and daddy started fighting. Mommy was crying and daddy wouldn't stop screaming" Penny started to explain to Lexington. They drove right by their old house with a "For Sale" sign in front. They both knew that could mean nothing good.